Kizzy

I would say that last night was a success.

After feeling rather sick all week at the thought of spending a night out with him, his friends, and his ex, she stayed out of our way and his friends were all really nice to me. Even the couple of friends that I have been a bit funny with him lately, so I think it went rather well overall!

I did try and befriend the ex when she was in the toilets at the same time as me, she was talking to her friend about x factor and I thought I would jump in there and try to contribute to the conversation. She was having none of it, but hey, its her problem. After everything she's done I think its rather good of me to be nice to her!

The cake was a success, it didn't taste too great but Manc loved the weebl and bob decoration. He also loved his presents, especially Family Guy monopoly. Though I have warned him that if we break up I am so taking that back! Which he is rather sensitive about after losing quite a lot of his stuff to his ex!

So yes, the weekend so far has been good. We are going out with some of his friends tonight, for a meal and a few drinks. 2 of them were there last night (including the girl that has been a bit funny) and 4 of them I've not met yet.

Oh and we are going to New York! Not booked it yet but we are hoping to book it soon and go in February. Though given both our histories I am a little concerned. I got dumped before a holiday, then got back with him and dumped him after a holiday. He dumped a girlfriend right after a holiday and was going to dump the ex but was holding on because they had planned to go to Mexico. Which was then cancelled due to pig flu.

So I'm a little concerned that its going to happen again and he will dump me after the holiday! or before! Hey, he's got previous, its kind of understandable.

But we are getting on rather well, so I'm really hoping New York will happen and it will all be great. Fingers crossed.

More trouble with the ex. His, not mine. Makes a change. Oh wait, lately it doesn't!

Went out on Friday night for his workmate's leaving do, and she was there. She kept talking to her mate and pointing and looking in our direction, in a really over the top drunk way. She was talking to Manc, about Nottingham (as if to ensure I knew that she had been there - wouldn't that have caused some trouble if I hadn't!) and generally making me feel uncomfortable. Fair enough it can't have been easy for her seeing us together, and a lot of it was my own paranoia. Well, some of it. But I would have thought she would have calmed it down a bit and drawn as little attention to herself or us as possible. For her own sake, no one elses.

In the next bar she cornered my friend and was saying that she didn't want there to be any trouble, but was slagging him off somewhat. She moved onto Manc, going on and on while he was pulling faces and she was failing to get the hint. The way she was acting, really over the top with her friends in front of us, and touchy feely, it was as if she was trying to mark her territory. Show me that she is still part of his life whether I like it or not.

Still, if that had been the extent of it I would have stayed fairly sane about the whole thing. But no, she asked him if he was going to introduce us (loudly pronouncing my name wrong, which is quite odd really as I seem to remember her pronouncing it perfectly fine when she barged into his living room to accuse me of being disrespectful). His response was that we'd already (insert expletive) met! But, she said, it wasn't under the best circumstances. Then, turning to me she said I think we may have met. Well yes, I seem to remember some vague situation where that may have been the case. I'm not a bitch. That was her response, not mine.

Isn't it great, we have been properly introduced, and now the three of us will be able to move on and have a great time when we go out for Manc's birthday next week.

Yes. That is correct. She was accidently invited by another friend, who is jointly celebrating his birthday on the same night out. And she thinks its a good idea to come. Knowing that I'm going to be there, with people I don't know and it will all be very awkward.

It just feels like she's making it difficult for us. I know I don't have anything to worry about, I don't think he would want to get back with her or anything like that, but I just don't like the fact that she is going out of her way to still be part of his life. Apparantly, she's not even really friends with the other guy whose birthday it is, yet she's still coming.

I shall be calm. And nice. And play the whole I'm-so-cool-the-ex-doesnt-even-hit-my-radar thing.

Ok, I shall get drunk.

Have been rather ill with a nasty stomach bug.

Luckily it only lasted the one day, but it would have to be a day I was spending with Manc! He came up here on friday and we stayed in with a film and a pizza, planning on having a more lively night out on saturday. However, I woke up feeling rather ill and spent the next 12 hours either on the toilet or with my head in a bucket.

I wouldn't have blamed Manc if he had wanted to just go home, I wasn't exactly fun company, but he stayed and was so lovely. He went out to the shop and came back with flowers, a frankie boyle dvd for us to watch as we wouldn't be able to go out, a big box of chocolates for when I felt able to eat again, and smoothie for the heathy factor.

Its not really the most romantic way to spend a weekend, I was quite embarressed by the whole thing but he just told me not to be stupid, and we just had a laugh about it. If he can see me at pretty much my worst - in my scruffy pyjamas, no makeup, greasy hair, smelling slightly of vomit - and still not be put off, then he may well be a keeper.

Today, luckily, I've felt ok, so the whole weekend wasn't a total wipeout. We went into town for a bit of shopping and lunch, and he left about an hour ago.

In other news, I've been studying but slightly stressed out by how much I still have to do. As usual! I always leave it until a few weeks to go and panic! Plus I am getting slightly distracted at weekends with the new boyf. But I shall persevere and get my assignment done!

The Ex messaged me on facebook. He's the slightly angry one, the one that keeps cropping up, usually at really inconvenient times. So I messaged him back a couple of times, only because I know what he's like, and if I don't respond he will be really funny about it if I see him out in town. I'm just trying to work out how to drop into the conversation that I'm seeing someone, without it being obvious that I want him to know. Then he will know that I'm not interested, but he won't have any reason to be funny with me because I'm not ignoring him.

Stupid boy. I probably should just ignore him. I don't owe him anything.